Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.
As I sit comfortably on my bed reminiscing these 38 weeks of togetherness, I am filled with immense love and gratitude for your presence. In a week I will be sharing an amazing creation with the world. You will have your own individuality and a beautiful life ahead. This feeling is gradually sinking in as we are progressing to the ‘D Day’. You and me ,we have spent beautiful times together and I am really grateful to all the support you have provided during this time to me. It has been one of the happiest pregnancy one could have experienced.
This journey of motherhood has been truly worth waiting for🙂 As I look back on our journey through these 38 weeks it gives me a sense of fulfillment as 2015 is one of the most intense and eventful year of my life. I wanted to pen down my experience and this beautiful journey with you. Hence this blog it is not something I am writing for others but for us as my gratitude gift to you.
2015 started with an intense inner purification with January being a spiritual rejuvenation month, it was simply a wow month it started with a visit to Allahabad your grandparent’s place for the annual Magh Mela and a dip in the holy waters of Sangam , Gangaji ka bhandara and Arti. Then with immense excitement I proceeded to Varanasi and en route visited Sitamani and Vindhyavasini Devi before arriving Kashi for the annual Arhatic Retreat. The plan was to reach a few days in advance to visit Bodh Gaya, Sarnath and Kashi Vishwananth temple and witness the majestic Ganga Arti and various ghats by boat. The trip was phenomenal and manage to visit several temples including Kaal Bhairav Temple, Kashi Annapoorna Temple, Sankat Mochan Temple (for Nanu),Vishalakshi Temple, Tulsi Manas Mandir. This trip to Varanasi was one of the most intense travel experience of my life.
After this beautiful journey began the three days of annual Arhatic Retreat it was an amazing experience with more than 1200 meditators together for 3 days it was like a spiritual rejuvenation .
Jan 2015 was a perfect jumpstart to an eventful 2015.🙂
Meditating under the Mahabodhi Tree (Gaya)
I had created a vision board for 2015 in September 2014 and when I reflect back I am amazed how beautifully things got lined up in 2015. March was a tough month emotionally during the Saturn period there was a lot of cleansing and letting go that happened. There were issues that had been pending for years and I was now looking for permanent solution.
A perfect way to get answers to life questions was attending 1008 Sharnagati practice I had done it earlier and decided to do it. It happens on 1st Tuesday of every month so I took an off from the office on 1st March. I really needed guidance and clarity for a specific situation.
5 hours of Sharnagati prayer helped in surrendering the issues to MCKS /God and here was guidance to take proactive action on pending situations. I kept getting signs that I was on track just like the Alchemist. Things got really sorted on my Birthday 6th March as if it was waiting for this day. Interestingly this year my Birthday and festival of Holi happened on the same day and yes it was a Full Moon this is first time ever in my life.
I am sure it was a planned turning point of my life as there are no coincidences. It created a beautiful foundation and thanks to your dad he really made it special. I could feel the warmth of my Sun period starting.🙂
21st March 2015 was the auspicious occasion of Ram Navmi every year I look forward to Navratri and enjoy setting up the Devi altar at home. This year it was special on Day 1 after the havan there was a peculiar heart warming feeling and I was full of tears of Joy ; I had no idea why it made me feel so emotional to host the goddess at home the idol had a powerful aura and I could feel a deep emotional cleansing. Tears were just rolling down the cheeks it was Saturday and I was on my way to CR Park I called up your Nanu and told him about the emotional breakdown and explained it felt as if someone has actually come in the house.
The days of fasting were beautiful and then on the last day of Ram Navmi 28 March there was a pleasant surprise nearly 45 kids visited the house for Kanchak and they were all so happy eating prasad. I just smiled for this opportunity.
I always believed motherhood will be a life fulfilling event and that I should really be well prepared to take up this responsibility in the best possible way. In April I attended the much awaited class on ‘MCKS Achieving Oneness with the Higher Soul’ and got deeper insights into how a soul chooses to incarnate the class was fascinating.
Then in April end we had a wonderful opportunity to attend the‘Om Mani Padme Hum’ session by Sriram it was really amazing to understand one of my most favorite Mantra. This was also a good preparation for the mega event of the year Wesak.
Om Mani Padme Hum Session with Sriram
The meditation experiences were becoming rich and very peaceful🙂 and there was a lot of purification and service happening for Wesak.
I felt someone with me for the first time when we meditated together on the auspicious occasion of Wesak Full Moon on 4th May 2015 as I was sitting in the meditation awaiting the descend of Lord Buddha in the valley of Shambhalla, I saw a Christ like figure giving me a golden baby I just thought it was my inner desire which was reflecting in my meditation, as at that point I had no clue we were together, the vision was very beautiful and it left a big smile on my face.
4000 Pranic Healers Meditating in Bangalore
You and Me Meditating in the Sacred Formation at the exact time of Wesak
Your presence was confirmed on a day that I will always cherish May 9th Mother’s Day and it was beautiful how your love and presence could be felt within. Such a beautiful gift to our family the news was welcome with smiles and tears of joy. You really made me feel special, the feeling of being a mother was priceless. I had fallen in love once again in my life , but with someone I had not seen , yet I was becoming so fond of you every day.
You have brought a lot of joy to our family, and how could your Nanu ,Masi and Mama miss this opportunity🙂 so they all came down to visit us and we end up with another trip together after years.
We went Choki Dhani and then Vrindavan for a day trip and we did darshan at the Banke Bihari temple and Isckon temple at Vrindavan.
August 2015 was the time for our dream vacation to Greece, all the tickets were booked in March when we had no clue of your arrival, and there were some interesting activities planned. Greece was going through a financial crisis and it was not quite safe to visit specially with us only 3 months young. Your dad side of family was really apprehensive and wanted to cancel the trip. There was something within that kept us going we conducted a special 21 Day Prosperity Healing Event in July 2015 and conducted a special 21 Day blessings for Greece financial crisis and stability in the country.
Trip to Greece
By the grace of God the trip went extremely well , the people, places, they all left us full of gratitude. The trip had a spiritual significance and it unfolded when we visited Delphi it was quite a hectic trip specially 8 hours of bus journey and sun🙂 on the second last day of the trip with both you and me tired was a feat, but we did it together. Here is the account of the experiences at Delphi.
Inner Conversations -Greek Sojourn ‘Know Thyself’
This year has been super fulfilling as you filled me up with many ideas to make this a year focused on service and spiritual growth. We could conduct multiple online event of healing and meditations. Relationship Healing, Prosperity Healing, Blessings for Greece Financial Crisis, This Diwali ‘Make A Wish’ and New Beginnings 2016.
There was an amazing review session with Acharya Hector on MCKS Kriyashakti in August and then we attended the Arhatic Bootcamp with Sriram and the MCKS Inner Teachings of Hinduism Revealed. This year was super fulfilling in terms of learning🙂 I am sure you enjoyed it too.
I am so happy that you are already under the blessings and guidance of your spiritual grandfather Master Choa🙂 we got so many opportunities to meditate , attend lectures on Master Choa’s teaching , Spiritual Sutras on Bhagvad Gita, and also visit the Pune Arhatic Ashram. I felt really blessed when we celebrated your Nanu’s 70th bday at Ashram and had a desire to be with you as well and in October 2015 during our 7th month together we could travel. It was an amazing incident at the airport when we were granted special permission to board the flight because of you as we were so late due to traffic.
Thanks to all the love and blessing of the masis and nanis during our stay who made this visit possible it was a beautiful experience. The meditations were blissful and intense.
You and Me Meditating Together at The Arhatic Yoga Ashram
People say you are a blessed child to be a part of us but I truly feel we are blessed parents to have you as part of our life . You have been an extra motivation to walk the spiritual path and I know this is going to continue now as I have a guide and companion in this journey.
Full Moon Meditations At Sathya Sai Auditorium
Your baby shower was planned on 26th of October, Full Moon this ceremony marks the descend of the soul and it became a historic moment for all as the moment your grandparents did the ritual and blessed us the entire building was shaking due to earthquake of magnitude 7.5. It was one of the most powerful earthquake in 2015. Some coincidences are hard to explain but they leave you thinking.
Papa and Us just before the Earthquake 26th Oct 2015
This year I had an agenda to meet a living Guru and wanted to meet Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev but somehow it could not work out but then this year was a year of wish fulfillment and on 1st December Sadhguru visited Delhi and we could make to the event. Sitting in the Aura of an enlightened being is an experience. Hope you enjoyed it too Thankyou!
Several Insightful Esoteric Study Sessions with Acharya Hector
You are a beautiful gift not only for me but for everyone who will experience you during this lifetime. You have made my life very special by giving me an opportunity to bear you as my child. I have felt you and been with you in these 9 months silently paying you gratitude. People have been showering you with blessings and love, I hope you have had a great time with me. No one will be able to understand our bond but I know in my heart it will exist forever. I am looking forward to your arrival every passing day and I know the day you will be born I will be sharing a masterpiece with the world.
I know someday you will be reading this blog too and you will know that you are a special child🙂.
Live your life in an extraordinary way and fulfill your life purpose for which you are visiting this planet.
I Love you